I don’t know what I’m doing.

Sometimes I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. But I keep doing it anyway. Maybe one day life will make sense. Until then I just keep going in a direction that feels right and hope it pans out.


I could do that…

The gap between ‘I could do that’ and ‘I did that’ is all about fear.

Life will chew you up.

Make a fucking priority. Stop flitting from hobby to hobby. You need a priority. What matters. OR What doesn’t matter. If you can’t list out 1 thing that matters and a list of things that don’t matter you’re screwed. Life will chew you up. You will be a slave to other people, and you will never get to that point of peace satisfaction of knowing you are doing your best to become the best you are capable of becoming. You can’t be your best if you haven’t determined what ‘best’ is. You can be the best basketball player in the world, but still have an empty life if it’s not what you want.

Oh there is no one correct answer. But just as there are many right answers, many answers are equally wrong… just plain wrong.

A motivational speech.

Every dream you have is achievable. The only person in your way is you and the stupid mistakes you make. You watch TV instead of working on the dream. You give yourself downtime when you have barely had any uptime.

Change your attitude. It’s not going to be easy and you can’t have it all.

Make decisions. Not only about where you want to go, but what in your life is not going to get you there.

Next you change your habits. You have 5 minutes, that’s it. Do something meaningful, that pushes you forward.

Get outside your comfort zone. You have a routine. Break it. Only then can you start taking your life in a different direction.

Feel the fear and do it anyway. If it won’t kill you, do it. Talk to that person, ask for that job, take that chance.

Your dream is achievable, but not while you have 16 other dreams. You can’t dream of having it easy and be a rock star. You can’t dream of catching every episode of the Walking Dead and be a sports journalist.

Missed a day

For a while I have been using Code Academy and Duolingo daily, It has been an impromptu habit.

Then, I missed a day of Code Academy. At the time I had 23 days in a row.

When you’re in a groove, the decision isn’t hard, you just keep going. You have 23 days in a row, doing one more is a no-brainer.

When you miss a day all of a sudden you have two options. Do I start with a 1 day streak or extend my inactive streak to 2 days.

We start many things in our lives. Some are well thought out and planned. Some are well supported by family and friends.

At some point after all the stopping and starting, you need to make a decision. When will you exercise resolve? When do you say, ‘I stopped, but this matters, I’m going to keep going?’

It’s a big question. More often than not one that I’m afraid of, and so are you.

Every time I keep going, I feel my resolve growing and my fear shrinking.

Increasing my resolve makes me think I have it in me to accomplish something great.

It’s only Code Academy. But it’s something more. It’s Grabbing life by the Horns.

I now have a 4 day streak. Or 27 of 28 days in a row.

Local Government

Why is there no national organization for Local Government Organizations? A group that can set the standard for how to be involved in your local community. Maybe literature on how to get involved, and what to be aware of.

As usual, there is no formula. If you want to be involved, you need to figure out the steps yourself.